I must admit that I’m reluctant to write this. Yesterday's article felt like the purging of my soul. But as I’m finding out the rabbit hole is going deeper. As I explore my inner landscape that this current opportunity brings, the more that wishes to pour forth. And so we begin.
Last night during my breathwork session I had a visitation from the devil. Yes, I appreciate this probably sounds absurd to most of you, as it would have done to me a few years ago. But hear me out. As I connected my breath with the intention of clearing out whatever I’d picked up from the day, he very quickly arrived and was all up in my face. I don’t mean physically, but with the intensity of it, he might as well have been. All red-faced, pointy horns and everything you’d expect from the lord of the underworld. It was clear he meant business.
To be honest I was a bit shocked. I mean, I was getting ready for bed and then BAM, this guy shows up to mess with me. And yet part of me was non-plussed, as I’d been doing some research about the bigger picture playing out globally right now so this visitation was bang on time.
Conversations with the devil
As I sat breathing with my eyes closed, his face was in front of mine. Not the most pleasant experience as you might imagine.
What are you doing here? I asked. I’m here to scare you and take your soul he replied.
Huh, I thought. That's nice. Thanks but no thanks, I think I’ll pass.
He continued in his effort to frighten me and as he opened his mouth to speak the stench of a thousand dead corpses swam in my direction. I took a moment and breathed out. I could feel myself contracting and getting a bit freaked out, like, well, any normal person would. But the wiser part of me knew that this was his game. He was deploying his cunning wily tricks in order to gain control and manipulate me for his own ends. At that moment I decided I wasn’t having any of it.
I breathed into the fear, contraction and doubt. Deeper and deeper. I let it be there and expand, and then
Once the initial fright had passed I felt calmer, yet he was still there, going on and on like an annoying playground bully. In that moment I knew what to do next. If I feel my feelings and let them play out they will dissipate and I won’t get hooked into his scare tactics. I won’t lose my centre and I’ll stay strong. If I get sucked into the downward whirlpool of terror and anxiety I’m a goner and he’ll have his wicked way with me.
The armour of God
Then I remembered what one of my mentors had said a few days before and figured I’d give it a go.
PUT ON THE ARMOUR OF GOD she said.
Well, in the presence of the devil what other plan have you got?! I figured I might as well test it out. After all whoever gets to play with Lucifer at 10 pm on Easter Sunday? My luck (?!) was clearly in.
So… I put on the armour of God. By that I mean I connected with a higher power (spirit, god, source, the universe, whatever you want to call it) and strapped in for the ride. All of a sudden it was like I’d activated the defensive forcefield of the starship enterprise. He was now on one side and I was on the other.
I’d created a magic bubble of unf*ckwithability that nobody, not even the devil, could penetrate and the message was loud and clear.
NOT TODAY SATAN, I’ve got bigger fish to fry.
Knowing who's in charge
Recognising the futility of his efforts he swiftly disappeared, and no doubt arrived on someone else’s unsuspecting doorstep. I waited a few moments to double-check the coast was clear, before taking a few deep breaths and knowingly smiling to myself. Noting that this experience was one for the record books and that things that would have freaked me the hell out in the past were now a walk in the park by comparison. I’d come a long way! (Side note: It feels appropriate to point out I’m not religious, although I do believe *some of the teachings lead in the direction of truth….. I digress…so back to the story)
Whether you believe in the devil or not, it doesn’t matter.
What was clear to me is this - nothing has control over you - unless you let it have control.
READ THAT AGAIN
Nothing has control over you - UNLESS YOU LET IT HAVE CONTROL.
You are in charge of your mind and emotions. It might not feel that way, especially if you have become desensitised and detached from yourself. If that’s the case, then you WILL be an easy target for manipulation and control. It’s highly likely you are following your cues for your life from outside, rather than to live and dream what’s true in your heart.
Trust your guidance
If you avoid feeling your feelings, you will become stuck and contracted. The sensations of your body are like a GPS - they are here to inform you of the environment so you can survive, and heaven forbid, thrive!
If you’re scared of the signals you get and try to cut them off then how do you expect to master your life?
By chance? By following everyone else?
I’ve been there, done that, and I can tell you from experience, it doesn’t work. Not unless you want to be a sheeple and run scared from the slightest challenge. Your consciousness is the most powerful thing you have, and you must, therefore, guard it with your LIFE.
As I learned again last night, When you own your breath, nobody can steal your peace. Not even the devil himself. If you ever doubted the divinity that you really are, this is the all confirmation you need. You are powerful beyond measure, but only when you decide to claim it.
The devil is real, but he’s not what you think. He’s merely the hook. You’re the one who puts yourself on it.
What will you decide?
Breathe the change you wish to see in the world.